ahhhhhhhh

.........?tnaw I od tahw ,os

..even time takes its time....

so... i guess... i just can't fall asleep right now..
i've been trying for the past 2.4679 hours..
i was simply lying down, but random thoughts, people's faces, words kept appearing..
i can't do anything but let it happen..
a very passive role i am playing, but what else can i do?

this is one of the random words..
so i was playing this salsa gig the other night and stayed hanging out for a while..
the band after us was a quite interesting band.. a bassist leader.
he sings and does spoken words too..
some words from his lyrics just got me even though i forgot about the context:
"......., even time takes its time....."




will time ever take its time?
...........for anything?





i've been thinking ..
those words struck me the same way if i were hit by a stone..

time.... what is time?
from what i know, the increasing number of my age tells me about time..
not so much mornings, noons and then evenings, coz they just keep returning..
not so much the increasing number of the year, coz i don't know what's the ultimate number it's reaching..
year 1982 or year 3013, is it different if you were just to observe the earth from the moon with a telescope?
but there seems to be an ultimate number for human beings' age, a moment life finishes..
and we all know it's approaching.. with time...

doesn't time suppose to be a one-way movement?
why do we human beings suffer from having the power of remembering what had happened in the past and then being able to bring it back in our mind again and again?

if the picture of the memory is so strong and clear and unbreakable,
can time really heal anything?




under what circumstances will time even takes its time......?

有你，真好

今天一早起來，就看到了你的email..
“ 而妳，妳就是妳就好，因為我很想念妳。“
ooooooo000000000OOOOOOOOO00oooooooo00000000OOOOO0OOOO0

只想和你說聲... 謝謝!! 高中生活因為有你，豐富了不少..
應該說人生的路上因為有你，讓我感覺踏實許多...
雙子座的你善於辯論、分析道理，記得一次又一次在中山國中站，
身著附中制服的你我，聊的停不下來，有太多的理想，太多生活中的樂趣，
太多的未知在人生旅途中等帶著..
那時的我心想，以後，許多年的以後，我應該會想念這一切吧...

沒錯!! 現在的我是這麼深刻的想起這一切，也想起在星巴客的你我她三人...
還有信義路上許許多多來來去去的身影....
年輕的點滴就這麼過去了... 很快吧!!

我又想起了在台大最傷心的時刻.... 也是你載著我在那山裡繞來繞去的....
那時我根本不知身在何處，只知道哭著，哭著，期盼一切就這麼過去...

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平日的我應該是無法，也不願寫出這麼心裡的話吧...
但藉著我現在的酒醉...哈
只希望你一切.....
都好....
我也非常的想念你..
一起加油吧!!!

comments..

i found myself very happy, even thrilled when i saw people leave comments on my blog.. i guess it proved my "existence" in a certain way.. it proved the fact that there's connections between the inside me and the outside world.. writing blog is definitely interesting to me.. it seems like a "personal" place to clear out my own thoughts.. (a lot of times i realized my true feelings towards something after it's written down..) yet sometimes i found myself choosing words gingerly.. just because i don't know who the readers are...


anyways.. it's still a place for me! me!! me!!!

polluted lungs

no clean, fresh air in this city
just polluted lungs walking here and there..
so stop pushing me, stop shouting at me,

we are the same, we are polluted lungs...
******************************************

this city smells...
bad..
5am, 3pm, 11pm, doesn't matter

" life itself is a movie.. "
...we know
it's just...

in the movie,
you don't smell the aroma of coffee..
in real life,
you don't hear the romantic music while kissing..

nice to meet you, polluted lungs..

師大附中

剛剛逛到ㄚ雞的blog看到了這段影片... 是附中的一起回憶一下吧!

HAHA this is too funny!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifKKlhYF53w

hum..

不知不覺 來到紐約已經快要3年了!!!
哎...3年總共才吃大概3碗大腸麵線的人生...
( po 完全文現在回看一遍，才想到....我才喝過2次麥香紅茶!! 天啊 那曾是我的最愛ㄟ......)

說真的 我很想念台灣的夜市!!
尤其是以前譚胖載我到處吃的日子..
譚胖雖然真的很胖，但他總是靜靜的看著我吃..
“妳吃啊! 多吃點!!“ 非常感謝他從不和我搶食物
只會在最後我超級撐，再也吃不下時說..
“好，妳吃不下了嗎？“ 然後把整張桌子一掃而空..


這3年來，我都還沒有回家過..
真不知道3年不見的台北有沒有變了樣子..
當初莫名其妙就來這邊了
只因為 1. 比利時去不成 2. 我不想去Berklee，因為台灣人很多 3.紐約聽起來很酷
就跑來了，一來才發現.. 哇!! 還好我來到了紐約!!
因為這裡才是爵士樂的家..
總之我的人生就是在不斷的誤打誤撞之下打滾..
相信多數來留學的人一定都是打了很久的算盤
全盤考慮 + 充足準備才來..
而我卻是走一步算一步，但可能運氣好..
一路總有貴人相助 讓我過的還不錯!!

只是真的沒有想到就這樣一腳踏入爵士樂的世界
好像我的人生現在也只和爵士樂, 爵士樂手, 爵士gig, 爵士rehearsal...有比較大的關係
有時靜下來想想真的覺得
wow 人生真奇妙.. 這一切是怎麼開始的啊?
如果當初在師大夜市Blue Note沒有聽到Uno表演，
之後沒有展開長達2~3年我每次都遲到而且很愛臨時取消的個別課，

那...我現在應該在某一公司上班吧..？

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